Psalm 94:12-15, the Message: "How blessed the man You train, GOD, the woman You instruct in Your Word, providing a circle of quiet within the clamor of evil, while a jail is being built for the wicked. GOD will never walk away from His people, never desert His precious people. Rest assured that justice is on its way and every good heart put right."
Some days I feel like I am in a vacuum, a space that is empty.. void of anything.. and I wonder what happened. Somehow, through pain, or fear or illness, I close myself off from everything and retreat to a safe place, so I think. When I am in that place, I am so alone.
There is no joy, no peace, no sadness, and there are no tears in this void in which I sit. Numb like my hands, my brain just steeps in nothingness.
Then I realize that I am in the wrong place.. a place that is without air, or space to breathe. It is not the crazy place, because I can go there too, not thinking and letting fear take hold of me.
How I need to bring all my thoughts into captivity: 2 Corinthians 10:5, the Message: "We use our powerful God-tools for smashing warped philosophies, tearing down barriers erected against the truth of God, fitting every loose thought and emotion and impulse into the structure of life shaped by Christ."
Those impulses, the ones that want to flee and hide.. the ones that are afraid, and confused.. those need to captured and brought into contol, into the structure of a life shaped by Christ. How can this be? How can I do this? Well, without God’s help, I am left impotent. No power in me can subdue the enemy of my wild thoughts and crazy mind. But God.. I love that phrase: But GOD.. The Most High God enters the scene and things begin to make sense again. No medical diagnosis, no doctors words, no negative reaction in my body can stand against my God Who Never Leaves Me, my God Who Never Walks Away. I am able to stand, because He holds me up, He holds me together. I can go forward with His goals, His pleasure, His purpose in mind. When I make mistakes, say things I shouldn’t, act like I am not His, or just ignore the important, by taking those things that race through my mind into captivity, I once again am in a quiet cricle within the clamor.
I am His and I am grateful. How I wish I could share the wonders of His Love.. the Love that never ceases, the Love that is secure and forever. The Love that heals and delivers.
No one, no way, no how, can possibly remove this Love that is with us.. Romans 5:8, NIV:"But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." There it is again: but GOD.
I love what the Life Application Bible says about that verse: 5:8 " ’While we were still sinners’ —these are amazing words. God sent Jesus Christ to die for us, not because we were good enough, but because He loved us. Whenever you feel uncertain about God’s love for you, remember that He loved you even before you turned to Him. If God loved you when you were a rebel, He can surely strengthen you, now that you love Him in return."
I am grateful, You never walk away.