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Well, I'm having a sick day today. I'm catching up on the devotional I'm doing with my niece between naps. The devotional is called Uncharted, and here is my response to today's message:
A whole lot of stuff doesn’t go my way. I guess that’s part of the new me. I forget everything, I drop everything and where once was ability, I sense disability. There is nothing I can do about it. I can’t will it away and God is not taking it away. Fighting it does no good. Trying harder is useless. Having a new resolve doesn’t change anything. I don’t see a brighter future with this body. I see the walls get higher, the steps get steeper and the doorknobs are difficult to manage. All the glasses seem to be on the top shelf. I’m banned from step stools because I fall off. I need help when I drop things because I can be dizzy and unsteady when I bend down to pick something up. It is possible to be very frustrated and discouraged.
But I’m not!!
Why is this? Because God loves me. He uses every single thing in my life to make me more like Jesus. He never promised an easy life, but He’s easy to love. He’s not selfish in any way. His motives are pure. He does everything for my good, and for the good of His Kingdom. And, I like Him and He likes me. I can stand in awe of His Majesty and Power, and sit at His feet sensing His warm breath. I am completely loved. I am carried, counseled and comforted by Him. He gently turns me around when I have headed in the wrong direction for the five-hundredth time. He never loses patience and always reminds me I am His. He laughs with me and He cries with me. He shelters me and breathes His life into me. He imparts His wisdom when I need it, and is right there to assess each moment.
His version of my life is very different from mine. Where I see loss, He sees purification. When I think I don’t know where I’m going, His fine navigation always gets me where He’s heading me. He has maximized my listening. He helps me hear Him and others at the same time so I can respond His way. I am blessed with encouragement and am resting in His plans, even when I’m seeing with clouded vision. He owns my heart and my future. He does nothing wrong. He gives me patience to wait, joy in His ways, comfort when I’m hurting, and His still small voice to illuminate my path. He picks me up in love when I’ve failed for the hundredth time so I can praise Him a hundred billion times. He gives me holy dreams and visions of Him.
When I can’t see, He helps me listen. When I can’t hear, He guides me onward. When I can’t walk, He allows me to jump for joy in His Spirit. When I can’t carry anything, He carries me. When my sense of smell leaves and I can’t taste anything, He sends His comfort. When I am confused by numbers, He tells me it’s okay. He has built the beauty of this world for me. His rain and His Reign delight me. When I look at what He has made, I’m impressed with His sense of color and style.
I have not even begun to scratch the surface of who He is to me, and I have eternity to learn.
Is my life easy? Nope.
Am I loving every moment of the life He gives me? Yup.
Well, I'm having a sick day today. I'm catching up on the devotional I'm doing with my niece between naps. The devotional is called Uncharted, and here is my response to today's message:
A whole lot of stuff doesn’t go my way. I guess that’s part of the new me. I forget everything, I drop everything and where once was ability, I sense disability. There is nothing I can do about it. I can’t will it away and God is not taking it away. Fighting it does no good. Trying harder is useless. Having a new resolve doesn’t change anything. I don’t see a brighter future with this body. I see the walls get higher, the steps get steeper and the doorknobs are difficult to manage. All the glasses seem to be on the top shelf. I’m banned from step stools because I fall off. I need help when I drop things because I can be dizzy and unsteady when I bend down to pick something up. It is possible to be very frustrated and discouraged.
But I’m not!!
Why is this? Because God loves me. He uses every single thing in my life to make me more like Jesus. He never promised an easy life, but He’s easy to love. He’s not selfish in any way. His motives are pure. He does everything for my good, and for the good of His Kingdom. And, I like Him and He likes me. I can stand in awe of His Majesty and Power, and sit at His feet sensing His warm breath. I am completely loved. I am carried, counseled and comforted by Him. He gently turns me around when I have headed in the wrong direction for the five-hundredth time. He never loses patience and always reminds me I am His. He laughs with me and He cries with me. He shelters me and breathes His life into me. He imparts His wisdom when I need it, and is right there to assess each moment.
His version of my life is very different from mine. Where I see loss, He sees purification. When I think I don’t know where I’m going, His fine navigation always gets me where He’s heading me. He has maximized my listening. He helps me hear Him and others at the same time so I can respond His way. I am blessed with encouragement and am resting in His plans, even when I’m seeing with clouded vision. He owns my heart and my future. He does nothing wrong. He gives me patience to wait, joy in His ways, comfort when I’m hurting, and His still small voice to illuminate my path. He picks me up in love when I’ve failed for the hundredth time so I can praise Him a hundred billion times. He gives me holy dreams and visions of Him.
When I can’t see, He helps me listen. When I can’t hear, He guides me onward. When I can’t walk, He allows me to jump for joy in His Spirit. When I can’t carry anything, He carries me. When my sense of smell leaves and I can’t taste anything, He sends His comfort. When I am confused by numbers, He tells me it’s okay. He has built the beauty of this world for me. His rain and His Reign delight me. When I look at what He has made, I’m impressed with His sense of color and style.
I have not even begun to scratch the surface of who He is to me, and I have eternity to learn.
Is my life easy? Nope.
Am I loving every moment of the life He gives me? Yup.