Confused

Yesterday was a tough day.. I woke up with so much tingling in my face.. I took some medication that is supposed to help.. but it changed nothing.. I tried to log onto B of A for my EDD report, and I couldn't figure out how to do it.. Al always tells me to stop and walk away.. I forgot about doing that.. I just kept trying to figure it out and I got worse and worse until I was completely confused.. I have to remember to stop when I feel that way. He said that we have discussed doing that.. but I don't remember the conversation.. My memory is no better than a gnat's.. So I cancelled seeing some wonderful friends, and just laid down the rest of the day.. Today my face is still tingling, so I am not going to do financial things today. I wrote this poem yesterday, to try to process what was going on.

Confused

by Barb Berens

12.06.2013

Sometimes the tingling in my face

Is beyond ignoring

My mind can’t focus or think right

And I am just confused



So I think of what I know

What I am not confused about

How I am loved and cared for

No matter what my brain is doing



If I can relax about it all

And not give in to being upset

If I can just rest in stillness

Then I won’t worry or be concerned



Confusion is just temporary

A state of mix up

And 1 + 2= 36

Does it really matter?



I like it when I think

On the things that bless

Not the things that upset

I can rest, be confident and loved.